I wish...

I wish he didn’t know so many girls because I am afraid to lose him to one of them. I wish he wasn’t so attractive because I am afraid I might have to compete with other girls for him. I wish he hadn’t been with other girls before me because I am afraid that his old feelings will come back for one of them. I wish he didn’t talk to so many girls because I am afraid he’ll slowly lose feelings for me and his interest for another girl will grow the reason why they’ll talk more often. I wish other girls would respect my relationship with him, but I know, some girls don’t really care and aren’t considering how hurt I would be if I were to lose him.