The final Straw...

I love another and I swear I love him true.

I swear I'm done with this, that I'm no longer in love with you.

You asked if it's really too late,

And gave that smile I'd love to hate.

You took my hand with my heart

And you told me we shouldn't be apart.

I know you oh too well

It was not very hard to tell

That that's the same old speech, the same old lies.

I'm no longer that same old fool, but you still got me hypnotized.

I don't know how to end this right, maybe there's no right way.

But even if this ends today, it'll never change the love I had for you yesterday.

My Love for You is like a Chocolate!

Would you agree to be the darkest chocolate I love?

The ones that brings delight and joy to my very simple life.

I would agree to be the laptop on your knees,

The movie that you always want to see before you go to sleep.

I wouldn’t mind to get a message from you from time to time,

To feel your fingers going up and down my fragile spine.

Instead, I’d burn you with the hottest kiss,

Remiss of you if you don’t feel it on your lips.

My passion towards you grows day by day,

And soon is coming the expected day.

When I can simply let it go,

And you can simply indulge it slow.

September!

When I think of September,

I no longer think of the love I lost 

Not about the guy who kept me up 'til midnight 

Not even of the one who I thought was the love of my life

When I think of September, I walk back in a dream
A time of liberation, of courage, how happy it seem
Coz of the love that began and ended so soon
Which left me with the coldest nights and an empty room


When I think of September I go back to a time
A time you loved me, and I called you mine.

Letting him Go…

I had to let you go so we can both have a fresh start, and a better chance at our dreams. We must find our own way since we chain each other away from our best chance in life.

One day if our paths shall cross again and we have all we ever wanted except each other, then we shall have our best chance in love.

Grudges

I recently received an abrasive and angry text message from someone falsely accusing me of something that on a personal level. I was shocked and hurt. My initial instinct was to reply something hurtful back in an act of self defense. My second instinct was to give him a list of reasons why he was wrong, in an attempt to refute his false accusations, thus defending my ego.

In the end my rational self know that engaging with him would only trigger more negativity, so I did stopped. I woke up the next morning with defensive thoughts running through my head, like a dark clouds hovering over me. Thoughts of something keep dancing around my mind that seemed to be a never ending cycle.

I thought about the anger a lot, and anger usually thought of being bad and destructive. There are some who argue that this is misconception. Anger itself is neutral. We may express anger in healthy and destructive ways. Healthy expression of anger enhances communication and personal growth.

I hated this feeling, in fact I hated the feeling of hating this feeling. I’m still pissed at him for the damage he did and at myself for allowing it all to go on for as long as it did. I came to point of realizing that he’s not sitting around upset about any of this, I feel stupid, I let this things happened. I let him control my life and my feelings for too long already…I refuse to give him any control over how I feel now.

When your hurt by someone you love and trust, you might become angry, sad or confused. If you dwell on hurtful events or situations, grudges filled with resentments, vengeance and hostility is developed. Never allow negative feelings to crowd out positive feelings, you might find yourself swallowed-up by your own bitterness or sense of injustice. I knew I had to release this energy to set myself free.

Now, he is no longer in control, his behavior no longer affect my life…I’m rebuilding my life, my way and be a better person. I am now responsible for whatever I want to do, what I should feel, how I should react---I am in control.

Start eachday right!

Good people gives me Happiness. Bad people gives me Experiences. Worst people gives me lessons and best people gives me memories.

we learn something through everyone that passes our lives. Some lessons are painful. Some lessons are painless and some are priceless. All of those lessons taught us a lot of things. Some empowers us, some motivates us, some leads us to a wrong path.. Just because the past didn’t turn out like you wanted it to, doesn’t mean your future can’t be better than you ever imagined.

So today, be Uplifted. Smile. Love. Laugh. Rejoice. Be insipred.

Infatuation

A crush, though defined as just a fickle liking of someone, is much more. It can be a full throttle passion for someone, an all around obsession. The definition of a crush cannot nearly be defined as a fantasy of dating a certain someone, but also can be defined in the finest detail. Details such as the fact that just a smile can light up your whole entire night or that because he loves the color red, you tend to wear red over any other color.

They say all the drama in your life starts in High-School. Everything would be your first time. But not for me. I was already aware of the matters of the heart even before I entered the High-School world. I was on fifth grade and was crying back then because my so-called friends betrayed me. It started out as a small crush, on the boy who wiped my tears away when I was down. Nobody noticed, except him. I admired him since then, and was contented by keeping it to myself. At first it wasn't that serious, and in time, it faded away. He wasn't exactly cute, he's not a very good person too. This is INFATUATION.

Infatuation is not looking at his face and nearly passing out, but just looking at something like the back of his head and feeling just the same. Admiration brings you through many mesmerizing fantasies, but not only that, through many real adventures. When you have a crush on someone, you make those fantasies as realistic as they can possibly get. If you are dreaming of holding his hand, a crush will bring you on the perilous quest to just touch that hand of his, for whatever reason may be tattooed into your head at the moment.

Too much admiration is something that can also make you miserable. But that must be why they call it a crush, because you go through all of this dreaming, hoping, wishing, praying, go through everything to be turned down in the end. "He never even noticed me; it was like I was never there! I've followed him around at lunch, my fantasy at the moment having been walking side by side with him through the cafeteria, while everyone watched us, and knew we were together. Obviously everyone watched, but that was because they were trying to figure out what a loser like me was doing following Mr. Popularity.

That's when I realized four things: First, Promises become lies when they're broken. The lie becomes the truth behind the promise. Second, Puppy/First Love never lasts, and it CAN'T wait. Only true love can, When you like somebody, you don't expect for anything in return. You're contented as you are, until you will forget it. And lastly, when you love, no matter how slim the chances are, you will wait for that someone to love you back. For the first time, or the second time. In vain, or in great hope. And you will never forget it. You will wait.