At least I don't have to exaggerate stories to
explain myself. At least I don't have to spend days explaining myself again and
again just to get people on my side and destroy others. At least at the end of
the day, no matter how convincing one's speeches may be, people still see.
Urrrghhh, I just hate you
like I never hated anyone else in my entire life! I've never felt like this
towards anyone. Always trying to see the good side even of those that cause me
too much harm, every hatred I feel usually doesn't last an hour, every hatred I
feel is always under control. So I don't know where this is coming from.
Maybe
it's because that was the first time someone did that to me, or I've given up
too much, or that someone is special, or it was all too much to handle, or the
wound is just so deep.
Whatever it is, I know
there's no enough reason for me to react this way every time someone recalls
the past, but for the first time, I can't control it.
Forgive me Lord if I am not
strong enough to forgive, as I used to say I'll always be.
With this, I rest my case.
Again.
